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    Thread of hope

    Post  Psioncy on Tue Feb 05, 2013 7:56 am

    We're talking again I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

    I don't want to say much more at this point.

    But my slowly die as I tough-it-out strategy might just be working...

    Either way, I'm please to report, that my self-annihiliation is currently "on hold".

    Which is fortuitous, cuz the timer's down to like 1 second.




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    Post  Psioncy on Sat Feb 09, 2013 5:02 pm

    Thus far my vacation is going great. I'm sleeping a LOT, and I haven't drank for over a week.

    Keeping the house immaculately clean, walking, eating moderate portions of healthy food.

    One of the things that gets me out to the bars is the girls. Now that that's a non-issue I look at them with disdain. Just a place to throw money away, poison myself, and get into FUBAR black-out mayhem.

    Drinking at home was mostly caused by the absense of my soul-mate. Now that we're in touch again, I can resist without too much difficulty.

    That face, the moment I saw it I knew she was the one. Four years of absense hasn't changed my feelings for her one bit.

    Putting it back together is fraught with difficulties, but I'm feeling very positive about overcoming them. I may even leave China again, as it's nearly impossible to put together anything stable here.









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    Post  Psioncy on Sun Feb 10, 2013 12:13 am

    OK, it's new years, and I'm having a few baijius...

    I couldn't stand the lonliness and boredom any longer.

    I've turned my world into a perfect world of *order*. You could inspect my apartment with a white gloved hand and turn up no dust.

    (Unless maybe you checked behind the radiator, but I'm getting to that tomorrow)

    I watched a man and his wife and child light off some fireworks near my house as I drank my baijius in the frigid cold.

    That's gonna be how it is with MY GIRL, except we won't be slanty-eyed godless chinks.

    She's got some chink blood, Jap. And probably an aboriginal negro fucked her great-great-great-so-on grandmother like 1000 years ago.

    And I have to admit she wouldn't be she cute if he hadn't.

    So what if she's brownish, I don't care. I love her.

    She belongs in a king-kong movie with a bone through her nose doing voodoo on a volcanic island dodging lava, and that's fine.

    Cuz she's got me by the short hairs and there's nothing I can do about it.

    So fuck white europe, I'm never gonna live there anyway.

    Piss off and fuck you!

    I don't mind a bit.

    I'll live in the tropical heat with fkn T-Rex and King-Kong and the rest of those assholes.


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    Re: Thread of hope

    Post  The Great Splendini on Sun Feb 10, 2013 12:46 am

    hey sciency, you shitbag.

    have another drink man!

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    Re: Thread of hope

    Post  Psioncy on Sun Feb 10, 2013 12:53 am

    You have another dink, man.

    You dinkman.

    FUPI!


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    Re: Thread of hope

    Post  Psioncy on Fri Feb 15, 2013 11:10 pm

    We've got some big obstacles to overcome, but my mind is crystal clear.

    And it's nice to have a purpose in life again.

    We've been talking everyday and I'm feeling very positive about things. I'm ready to handle anything in my path, and I'm moving in a direct path, right on target. Crappy ass reality will just have to make way.

    I feel strong, my will is steel.

    Even last night this black chick was coming onto me very strongly and I told her that I have GF.

    Something I haven't been able to say for years.

    I don't know what it is about her, it's inexplicable.

    I've dated drop-dead gorgeous women, sweethearts, uber-rich women.... all kinds of women over these past few years, but none of them could fill the void she left.


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    "It's all part of the plan."
    "What is the plan?"
    "I kind of make the plan up as I go."
    "That's not really a plan then."
    "Okay, so it's not a plan. Look, I'm not good with plans."

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